Worth
What is "worth"? Why do we do foolish things that put our life at risk? When i mean risk, it ranges from the most serious of circumstances to the most infinitesimal of consequences. Why do we do things only to get a brief moment of bliss? What drives us to do these? Is everything we actually do, worth it? Once again, "What is worth?"
Well, tonight was worth it. I was once again able to see her, talk to her, make her laugh a bit... and the list goes on. Now... How the hell am i going to do this? I was supposed to see her Monday night...but now it seems that i have to see her during Wednesday night? Wow... Hearing that from her a while ago threw me off course... I didn't see it coming.
Wednesday, Thursday and next Monday are my exams... This is all so...perfect.
"I have to prioritize.", is what my mind kept on telling me to do. I have to choose. I can't have my cake and eat it too. It's funny coz here i go again. The question hits me, "Is she worth it?" Is my time away from my books for my exams worth going to her place? Is my effort trying to win someone's approval worth those few precious hours? What is worth? Why do i have to be in this situation? I can't have everything... Now here's the funny part.
She is worth it. She is worth my time away from my books. She is worth my effort and those few precious hours. If I want something real bad, i have to work for it, right? I have to earn it, right? I guess this is the way. Here are the facts though...
I'm not even 20% sure of winning that approval. I won her the first time, but will I win her the second time around? I wait and see... In fact I pray, I wait and I see...
What is worth? If worst comes to worst, I'm prepared for it. The dissapproval I might get won't change anything. Nothing will change between me and her. I'll still like her. It's all so ironic I tell you especially now that I'm smiling despite my grim predicament. I'm hoping for the best. Pray for me.
I'd just like to say that God really watches over us. Right Dino? I'm glad everything's somehow fine now with you and your dilemma.
Tonight was worth it. Tonight was worth seeing my friends. Tonight was worth hearing them laugh, talk, seeing them eat, smile... I think I'm starting to get sentimental. Hahahaha. Thank you God for everything, good and bad.
One last thing...this morning I found out how stressed I was. I was thinking about something...something serious...then my head started throbbing like hell. I felt something warm gushing from my nose... I thought i was having allergies so my nose was runny. Nope. My nose was bleeding. Wow... Amazing.
You know, you should be proud of yourself. You're the only girl I know who made my nose bleed from too much thinking. Weird, strange, freaky...but cool all the same. Haha, you're worth it. I know you are.
God help me if I'm wrong.
Well, tonight was worth it. I was once again able to see her, talk to her, make her laugh a bit... and the list goes on. Now... How the hell am i going to do this? I was supposed to see her Monday night...but now it seems that i have to see her during Wednesday night? Wow... Hearing that from her a while ago threw me off course... I didn't see it coming.
Wednesday, Thursday and next Monday are my exams... This is all so...perfect.
"I have to prioritize.", is what my mind kept on telling me to do. I have to choose. I can't have my cake and eat it too. It's funny coz here i go again. The question hits me, "Is she worth it?" Is my time away from my books for my exams worth going to her place? Is my effort trying to win someone's approval worth those few precious hours? What is worth? Why do i have to be in this situation? I can't have everything... Now here's the funny part.
She is worth it. She is worth my time away from my books. She is worth my effort and those few precious hours. If I want something real bad, i have to work for it, right? I have to earn it, right? I guess this is the way. Here are the facts though...
I'm not even 20% sure of winning that approval. I won her the first time, but will I win her the second time around? I wait and see... In fact I pray, I wait and I see...
What is worth? If worst comes to worst, I'm prepared for it. The dissapproval I might get won't change anything. Nothing will change between me and her. I'll still like her. It's all so ironic I tell you especially now that I'm smiling despite my grim predicament. I'm hoping for the best. Pray for me.
I'd just like to say that God really watches over us. Right Dino? I'm glad everything's somehow fine now with you and your dilemma.
Tonight was worth it. Tonight was worth seeing my friends. Tonight was worth hearing them laugh, talk, seeing them eat, smile... I think I'm starting to get sentimental. Hahahaha. Thank you God for everything, good and bad.
One last thing...this morning I found out how stressed I was. I was thinking about something...something serious...then my head started throbbing like hell. I felt something warm gushing from my nose... I thought i was having allergies so my nose was runny. Nope. My nose was bleeding. Wow... Amazing.
You know, you should be proud of yourself. You're the only girl I know who made my nose bleed from too much thinking. Weird, strange, freaky...but cool all the same. Haha, you're worth it. I know you are.
God help me if I'm wrong.
posted by E.Z. at 5:50 PM
1 Comments:
hey weez :) don't sweat it too much, i'm sure you'll be able to pull it off. :) just use the "brotherly" charm..hehe ;p
good luck tito! both for the "big event" and your final exams!
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