Black Saturday Blues

I am in desperate need of someone I can talk to… These past few days of keeping to myself are the weirdest moments in my life. For your information, I do think that blogging at this unholy hour is definitely hazardous to my health. Would you believe it’s 4:31 in the morning?

Great I just heard the cock crow… So much for another early start! Hay…

Why am I in such a contemplative mood? On the ride to Chinatown before dinner, I was immersed in deep thought. My mortality disturbed me…

As I drove my mom’s car, I looked at the winding road zooming by my window. The Coastal highway near Roxas Boulevard definitely stirred some of my morbid perceptions of life.

I am going to die someday so…I still don’t get it. Why do I keep on living my life? What’s after death? These questions wracked my very being.

The sense of being present in the lives of others somehow caught my fancy during that same moment. Why do I love being around my friends? Perhaps my being with them lets me lose my sense of time. I guess the carefree moments with my close buddies help me cope with the effect of the unstoppable flow of time.

My friend Nicole kept teasing me a hundred times before…, “Oldie! EZ, You are such an oldie!”

Age… Being 18 turning 19 in a few months just made me realize a lot of things. Time has this ultimately sly way of slipping your grasp. The last time I really thought about it, I was still in 1st year high school. What happened during those years between 1st year and 4th year? Why has everything gone by so fast?

This fast-paced life sickens me… I wish I could take things slow again. As much as I’d like to grow up, I’d hate to leave my carefree days as a high school bum/slacker/innocent teenager of the world. College… It doesn’t seem as inviting as it used to be a year ago.

Perhaps I rushed into things too much during the past 2 years of my life. Am I a sucker for instant gratification? Want, Want, Want, Now, Now, Now…

I’ve always longed for material wealth. Not that I’m underprivileged or anything but I guess I’ve always had this desire to want more of whatever I can get my hands on in life. More money, more clothes, more food, more gadgets, more friends, more achievements…and the list goes on….

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Scratch that, Sabs just went online and she invited me to a Katipunero sunrise escapade. It’s now 4:47am.

(The Escapade etc etc etc)

That was really exhilarating being with almost all of the Katipunan barkada again. I picked up E.J., Sabs and Merc. We went to Ateneo to watch the sunrise…Ngerk…too bad today was too cloudy for us to see anything let alone a glimpse of the rising sun. We had breakfast in Pancake House. We finally met up with Issa, Dav and his friend Samako(?). Basta his name started with an M. Hehe Sorry about that man. We played Bullshit and 1-2-3 Pass to while the time away.

Take note I haven’t had an ounce of sleep since yesterday…My God! I am going insane!

Went to Merc’s to finish the last game…We were so red afterwards… J

Thanks Sabs for saving me. (Thanks to all the others too!)

SO anyways…I’m here again…I want to sleep…

I think I’m sooo bored na…

And oh, for my next blog entry, I’ll be writing about the AC grad Ball and MK. (My new extra super duper fun barkada. Oh I love ‘em.) I just might post a few pictures. J I’m outta here!

Eaze signing off…( I apologize for the sudden mood swing starting from the Escapade episode. That part was totally written like 7 hours after my gloomy disposition.)