Haha... Ha...Great...

I could have gotten the same satisfaction if I talked to a rock I guess...
That's it. I'm sorry it even started.

Thank you for all the things you did and didn't do.

Goodbye.

After A While...

AFTER A WHILE …

After a while, you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul. And you learn that love doesn’t mean leaning and company does not mean security. And you begin to learn that kisses aren’t contracts and presents aren’t promises. And you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes open, with the grace of an adult not the grief of a child. And you begin to build all your roads on today for tomorrow’s ground is too uncertain for plans. After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much. So plant your own garden and decorate your own soul instead of waiting for someone to give you flowers. And you learn that you really can endure … that you are strong. And you really do have worth.


AFTER “AFTER A WHILE”

After ‘after a while’, you want to hold a hand not to chain a soul but to enjoy it’s company, and you want someone’s lips to kiss, not because you are lonely but because you are happy, and you want to give presents and you want to make promises. After ‘after a while’, you begin to accept your defeats like an adult, but like a child, will want someone to listen and care, and you want someone who will build roads with you today so maybe you can pave the way for your future together. After ‘after a while’, you want someone’s sunshine and warmth, but also accept the rain and the cold, and you want to give flowers picked from your own garden. And when your garden is picture perfect, you want it to be more than a picture even if it means having to be imperfect because you want someone in it to stay and to live. Then you’ll see that there is such a thing as love … and that you were made to live in someone else’s garden … and you’ll know that there is more to life than yourself.

AND NOW …

You realize that no matter how tightly you hold, if you’re meant to let go, you can. And then you will understand that love gives you reasons to understand even the most complicated situations. And you will grow older believing that just because you have convictions doesn’t mean you’re always right. You will remember the lips because of the smiles that made your day, the words that touched your soul, not only because of the sweet kisses. And as you graciously accept defeat and absorb the meaning of lessons learned, you feel that you are finally being the person you never thought you’d be. So armed with courage, strength and confidence, you will face the world head on … with or without an army behind you. Because you know your worth and that alone is an armor. With more heartbreak you will cry … but after every heartache, you will rise. Life is a garden … it takes long to make it beautiful. But it’s always worth the wait.

- anonymous

The second I caught her eye...

I was doing fine a few hours ago. The lack of sleep for the past few days has been killing me... I've been sick fer two days now.

And then I had to look... I didn't have to. It's not like I didn't want to either, but still... I've been in this stupid place for far too long. Should I wait? Should I push through with it? I'm just setting myself up. I know now why I feel this disturbed.

Ateneo suddenly didn't look as beautiful as it should have from where I was... Everything is relative.

I could be wrong but at the same time, I can't help but feel like I'm right. I could give everything but I could lose whatever sanity I had saved from the last time.

What to do? "I wish you knew..."