Reflections While Being Sick for 2 Days...

Everything happened so fast. Emotions flared, tempers rose and fell, harsh words were cast and grievances were aired. All these transpired last tuesday night. I hate to name names so I'll keep this part short and sweet.

What happened last night was meant to happen. No matter how brutal things were. Well, I wouldn't call it brutal. I expected this to happen sooner or later. You just can't keep sensitive issues like these under the lid for so long. Eventually, these things will have to come out.

No one's being kicked out of the barkada. No one's leaving either. No one's at fault. We're all still friends. I just pray that it stays this way even if it's just for a while lang. A little peace and quiet never hurt anyone right?

I believe that what happened will help make the Katipuneros become a stronger group. Remember, only the best steel is forged over and over and over again.

We need to cool off.

Anyways, as I was sick nga for the past few days, I was listening to a few songs in my PC. I actually hate listening to these songs hehe coz they make me think too much about past issues in my life. Well anyway, here are the lyrics.

My One and Only Love by Sting

The very thought of you makes
My heart sing
Like an April breeze
On the wings of spring
And you appear in all your splendour
My one and only love

The shadows fall
And spread their mystic charms
In the hush of night
While you're in my arms
I feel your lips so warm and tender
My one and only love

The touch of your hand is like heaven
A heaven that I've never known
The blush on your cheek
Whenever I speak
Tells me that you are my own

You fill my eager heart with
Such desire
Every kiss you give
Sets my soul on fire
I give myself in sweet surrender
My one and only love

The blush on your cheek
Whenever I speak
Tells me that you are my own
You fill my eager heart with
Such desire
Every kiss you give
Sets my soul on fire
I give myself in sweet surrender
My one and only love

It's a very ermmm hehe romantic song. :)I love the lyrics and the way Sting played it. Maybe one day, I'll get to play this song for haha *no one* I'm not mentioning anyone.

Somehow, I like the feeling of floating and "drifting". I'm somehow enjoying it. Liking or loving someone now isn't as appealing as it was before. Perhaps I'm being jaded? Or maybe being cynical? Or maybe I'm just too damn scared. Am i just traumatized from last time...?

At least I can say that I don't have to be jealous of everyone else. Or am i just denying that fact? Gahh...Whatever. Being like this though has its ups and downs. Well, I'm glad that my circle of friends in the barkada's there. With them, I forget my problems.

Everything feels so right when we're all together. I don't know why.
I have a lot of questions to ponder on but I guess they can wait til next time.

I pray our Boracay trip pushes through :D Til next time.

Bonfires, Bands and the Megamall Spree

I sure don't know how to describe the past two days of my life. Everything seemed to go by really fast like a rollercoaster ride. The sensations and feelings i had were also similar to that of a rollercoaster ride. I'd like to compare life to a masquerade party in the days of Napoleon. Let me tell you why. (Haha, what a weird transition. Ang labo.)

Last Friday, I was a security guard. Yup, you read it right! I was a friggin' security guard. Why, you ask? Well last Friday was our high school's bonfire and somehow our administration had some bright idea of making us the security force of the event. Well, I didn't mind the idea at first 'til I learned that day that I needed to guard A TENT FULL OF FREE FOOD! Oh, just great. You know, i really felt all so important and almighty guarding FOOD!...Oh, and here's the good part. I didn't have lunch that day so I was really hungry by the time my shift came to guard the stupid tent. I was only three feet away from all that glorious food... It was a trial for me haha. I survived. :P

During the bonfire, i saw a lot of Chickas. Ang dami talaga. MArami ding mayayabang na tao. Mga lower classmen with attitude problems were loitering in the area. They loved walking with this certain swagger na parang, "look at me, I'm so handsome and macho." Geez, where is the future of the ateneo high school students headed for? One day, because of all these ignorant assholes, the school may be stereotyped as "An institution of Rich, And Konyotic Airheads without Values" I fear for the school. May the nerds of the following batches save the future of Ateneo!

Anyways, I saw Marla there. She was with Jian :D hehe They looked cute together. They were nice enough to drop by and visit my lonely Free Food Booth i was guarding. They stayed with me for a few minutes before moving on to the other spots within the high school grounds. A lot of my friends from the high school were there too. (Duh) They were all doing the same thing whenever they'd see me. It'd go like this--->

1. They'd smile at me. 2. They'd salute me and say hi. 3. They'll ask, "Oh E.Z.! What's up pare?". 4. I'd reply with, "Oh nothing much man. Ginawa lang akong guwardiya ng lechon." 5. They'd reply with, "Haha, Okay lang yan E.Z.! Kawawa ka naman. Kaya mo yan." 6. I'd laugh and say,"Haha...yeah" 7. Then they'd say goodbye and ingatz.

Goddammit! I did that like about a hundred times that night...Insensitive sonzabitches. Hahaha. I only did that to my "generic" friends. I was, of course, much warmer to my closer friends like sina Dino, Jian, Marla, Sabs, Ian etc.

That night I had to leave early for band practice with sina Gab and Mio. Marla came along :) haha, it was all fun. Before leaving I saw Ian alone watching the bonfire festivities so I took it as my chance to say hi. Luckily, she remembered me :D Which was nice. We chatted for a while about how much she looked like Sabs. Haha, she kind of agreed with me that she and Sabs looked alike. Then, in the next few minutes, Sabs appeared right out of nowhere. So I was seeing double. I felt confused and disoriented for a while. Man, i really have to say that their resemblance is uncanny. Hahaha. After a few minutes of chattin' with them, I had to leave for practice already.

First, me and Marla picked up Mio at his place. Mio didn't know that Marla came along so she planned to scare the living daylights outta him by hiding in the backseat and surprising him. It worked! It was really funny. Mio's eyes became really big and he kind of shrieked while Marla terrorized him! Hahaha... Pang-Kodak moment.

After a few minutes at his place, we proceeded to leave for Gabs' house in Pluto. On the way, I saw my nephew ToonZ and his friend. They were on the way to the high school bonfire, eh, since he is my nephew, i took him and his friend to the high school grounds narin. Naxxx...Good deed for the day. :P

Despite Warp speed, we reached Pluto after 30 minutes. That place is really far...Az in... We picked Gabs up and proceeded to his Glass Factory all the way in Fairview A.K.A. FARview/the Galaxy of Andromeda. When we reached the place we practiced like hell. We experienced the recent Earthquake there. It was scary as in. The lights were flickering for quite some time coz of all the shaking. Luckily we survived. :P We went home a bit tense. I dropped the Martian Gabs home first then Marla. On the way to Marikina, Marla acted as my stick shifter so my car became kind of Automatic in a Manual sense. Haha labo. She took care of shifting while i took care of steering. It was fun :P

We reached her place after 30 minutes of driving. By that time i was soo sleepy na... She left her wallet in my car so I have to give it back to her pa the next time i see her. I dropped Mio home soon after. I retired to bed at around 1am. We had to wake up early the next day to catch Issa's band try out for the Assumption Antipolo thingie.

That night I had a weird dream. It ended with a dog licking my fingers. That's the time I woke up! Shit! I looked at the clock! It was already 9 o' clock!!! I overslept dammit! I rushed outta bed to freshen up only to discover we had no water coz of some busted pipe in our area. SheesH! Talk about bad Luck! I had to wash my face and brush my teeth with bottled water from our fridge. It was ice cold! bRRRR... I proceeded to Mio's after. I called Issa and she was fuming. I'm really sorry Issa ah...ehehehe...I was really tired that morning. I didn't mean to oversleep, honest!

After getting Mio, I had to warp into the next Galaxy of Andromeda where Gabs lived. I picked him up after a few minutes. We did our best to reach the BOONDOCKS on time but alas! We were too late na. We missed Issa's band. Issa was really pissed... :(

I really made sure to apologize to her. Anyways, we were able to get in the place. Nga lang, we had an itty bitty problem with Mio's *ehem* choice of footwear. He was in TSINELAS which was obviously not allowed there in AA coz it was uhmmm indecent. Thank goodness Issa had an extra pair of sandals. We signed in as WOW! DUDE PARE! IT'S THE GOOD GUYS :D hahaha

We did kinda good for our first "gig" ahahha. It was memorable. We had problems with the "disappearing" cymbals and the shaky stage. It was all scary as in but fun! At least we're getting some experience na. We aren't too optimistic about AA coz there were a lot of darn good bands who played. Well, great things start from small beginnings right?

We met a lot of Issa's buds from AA. Cool people, they were. :) We even went to this "maze" in the school. It made me really dizzy. :P We were almost caught by some personell who took care of the place but luckily Kat and Issa made up some far out excuse which the guys bought anyway :P Thanks guys, we owe ya!

We left AA at around 12pm for Megamall so that we could go on our little shopping spree. Mio was our "sugar" daddy that day haha. Issa fell asleep on the way. We got to Megamall at 1pm coz of heavy traffic in the Ortigas area. We decided to grab a bite muna at Carl's Jr. I had to treat Issa to make up for my being late that day. :D It was all fun. We visited a lot of stores there especially music stores like Perfect Pitch, Yamaha and JB music. Mio bought stuff for his drums and guitars. He also got a T-shirt of John Lennon or was it Led Zepellin? Anyways, it was all good. The highlight of the day was this Korean dude in Toy Kingdom. Oh my god that guy was soooo freaky!

It went like this, we were at Toy Kingdom checking out this cool funky black and white dancing robot similar to Sony's Aibo Robo Dog when suddenly from out of nowhere comes this 40 year old Korean. He looks at the robot we're lookin' at and guess what he does!? He kicks it! The friggin' dude kicked it! Not only that, he smiled at us after kicking the toy! It was sooo weird! We were all like, "What the hell??!! What the f*ck's your problem dude!!??" We were all laughing hyterically coz of that. Haha, deep inside, we were all thinking of what was going on in that guy's head while he kicked the toy. He must've been thinking na A.) "Ah hah! I outsmarted the toy! Look at how i kicked it!" B.) "Look at how I can kick this toy! You guys are next! Mwahaha!" or C.) "Look I'm a Korean and I know Tae-Kwon-Do! See my powerful kick destroy this puny little toy!"... Tss... Stupid little shit that old man was...

We left megamall at around 5pm coz we had to be home by 6:30pm that day. I dropped Mio, Gabs and Issa at Mio's place. :P I had to leave na agad coz my 'Rents were already looking for me. That ended my Big Day for Saturday. Later that night, i watched a movie with my Dad in Rockwell. Open Water was the name of the film and boy did it suck!!!! Bitin Man!!! Nalugi kami. Don't ever watch this film unless you'd wanna waste 131 bucks. Tss....

Haha, anyways, that's all for now Coz I have tons of homework to do pa!!! Augh!!! Bye Amigos! :D

Piece of This...

A lot of things have been happening lately. I apologize to everyone since i haven't been able to update my blog since ages ago. Well, we had this AC/AA birthday thing at Rockwell last Saturday. It was really fun. Everyone was looking good. The Katipuneros were there. I don't know if it's the latest fashion statement but I noticed that night that the girls loved wearing them nasty short short short as in fuckin' short skirts. Not that I'm complaining hahaha but it was quite an eye-strain for even the likes of me. The place was a melting pot of Assumption's finest. Well I'd have to say that all the girls there were all nice as in. No snobs and konyotics at least. I saw a lot of familiar faces :P A lot of guys from Ateneo were there. Mix of seniors and juniors.

I just found out din that I'm the Uncle/Tito of Ian. Hahaha Sabs. Geeez I'd have never expected this in a gazillion years. Well, once again I am a Tito to another girl close to my age. It was kind of funny when she told me about it. And ah-hah! Ang sneaky niya. She twisted my arm into treating her to Mcdonalds in Rockwell that night when me Mio, Ej, Issa and George went there to relax from the par-taye. Just kidding. She just suggested it but since I was such a nice Uncle/Tito that night I treated her. Hehehe Anyways, we left Powerplant after around thirty minutes to go back to all the dancing, short skirts and booze.

It looked like everyone was enjoying the company of their dates that evening. Except for a select few that wanted to shy away from all of the action in the main function room. I was one of them. Maybe coz i missed someone that night.... Hahaha But the night was okay altogether. We went to Roxas again but nothing happened coz we were really missing another member of the group. My Evil Oriental Chick of a Friend wasn't with us so things weren't the same for the Katipuneros. We miss her antics so much. Marla was feeling pretty bad that night... Issa...well she was in a state of temporary euphoria. E.J. was all smug and smiling in the back seat of the car coz of all the *ehem* pictures he took of a significant someone in his life. Mio was being his usual self lang. He was a bit restless lang. Well, I'd have to say that he too took a smattering amount of pictures of lots of pretty hot chicks haha. I guess that was enough for him that night.

I met Nicole once again in the latter part of the party. She didn't remember me but it was all cool. I don't blame her naman din coz it's been a long time since our soiree at her place when I was still in third year. She was really nice and approachable naman.

I'm still getting the shakes coz this saturday we'll be having our second screening for the AA bands thing. Sana we do enter and i hope that i don't choke while playing my bass. Well, I'll let God take care of that na. Hopefully He'll have mercy on Wow Dude Pare, It's The Good Guys.
Haha, i really love that name. It's so us. Mio talaga you fucknut. :P I miss you guys already.

WAit... I just need to let this out...

There's this strange feeling of emptiness I've been getting lately and somehow I don't know why I feel this way. Maybe I'm just lonely or maybe I'm just thinking too much. I guess my problems have been taking up most of my thoughts which isn't supposed to be.

Why do i feel that everything right now is too good to be true. Why do i feel that something major in my life is gonna end soon? This sense of foreboding is really getting on my nerves. I'm cracking up i guess. I probably just need someone to talk to. SOmeone who'll really listen to me, to my rants and raves and to the real me whom I guess I've been hiding really well so far from everyone else in my life. Why do i have to wear this mask? This stupid innocent countenance is supposed to hide me and protect me but now i feel that its the very thing that's ripping me to shreds. Someone f*cking save me!!!!

Maybe one day, I'll be able to grasp that hand that can take me out of my somehow eternal damnation. I hate to say this but I'm getting all ******** again.

I'd like to bitch and rant s'more but I still have to attend to my homework. I'll do my best to update my blog more often. It just hit me now how much i miss doing this. Till next time Amigos.