This Is All So Unbelievable ;)

I am walking on air! I am tickled pink! I feel so so so so blithe!!! I'm in high spirits!!!

Augh... Basta, I'm really really HAPPY!!!

In fact, words fail to describe this intense feeling that has been flowing through my veins since the other night's event.

Thank you guys!!! Thanks for all your prayers!!! Thank YOU GOD!!!

February 23, 2005, 7:08pm to 8:34pm will be etched into my memory forever...

That was the first time i ever did something like that... And for me to live through it... And for me to even get the "YES"...

Unbelievable!!! Woohoo!!! In fact, as soon as i got out of her house and into my car, I screamed and shouted like a madman!!! Hahaha This is all so amazing...

You know... all of the worrying was worth it. My inability to study that whole afternoon was worth it. My staying up the entire night to catch up studying for my final exams was worth it. Everything was worth it...

She's worth it... ;)

I knew she was... and will always be... worth it... ;)

I can't believe i did it...

The Worst Part...

I am now waiting... and waiting... and waiting... and waiting... Augh... The suspense is killing me...
It's now 3:35 pm and my whole body feels like jell-O. I feel boneless...

What will it take to...? Nevermind... I know i can do this... no sweat... pshh
tsss kaya toh... I'm just overreacting...

Who the hell am I kidding??!?! I'm scared as hell!

My hands are cold, shaking and damp from the anticipation...

I still have exams tomorrow! I cannot concentrate!!! WooHoo!! Haahahaha I think I'm going insane...

Well, this is it! Pray for ME once MORE!!!... Adios people...

Lets do this!

Worth

What is "worth"? Why do we do foolish things that put our life at risk? When i mean risk, it ranges from the most serious of circumstances to the most infinitesimal of consequences. Why do we do things only to get a brief moment of bliss? What drives us to do these? Is everything we actually do, worth it? Once again, "What is worth?"

Well, tonight was worth it. I was once again able to see her, talk to her, make her laugh a bit... and the list goes on. Now... How the hell am i going to do this? I was supposed to see her Monday night...but now it seems that i have to see her during Wednesday night? Wow... Hearing that from her a while ago threw me off course... I didn't see it coming.

Wednesday, Thursday and next Monday are my exams... This is all so...perfect.

"I have to prioritize.", is what my mind kept on telling me to do. I have to choose. I can't have my cake and eat it too. It's funny coz here i go again. The question hits me, "Is she worth it?" Is my time away from my books for my exams worth going to her place? Is my effort trying to win someone's approval worth those few precious hours? What is worth? Why do i have to be in this situation? I can't have everything... Now here's the funny part.

She is worth it. She is worth my time away from my books. She is worth my effort and those few precious hours. If I want something real bad, i have to work for it, right? I have to earn it, right? I guess this is the way. Here are the facts though...

I'm not even 20% sure of winning that approval. I won her the first time, but will I win her the second time around? I wait and see... In fact I pray, I wait and I see...

What is worth? If worst comes to worst, I'm prepared for it. The dissapproval I might get won't change anything. Nothing will change between me and her. I'll still like her. It's all so ironic I tell you especially now that I'm smiling despite my grim predicament. I'm hoping for the best. Pray for me.

I'd just like to say that God really watches over us. Right Dino? I'm glad everything's somehow fine now with you and your dilemma.

Tonight was worth it. Tonight was worth seeing my friends. Tonight was worth hearing them laugh, talk, seeing them eat, smile... I think I'm starting to get sentimental. Hahahaha. Thank you God for everything, good and bad.

One last thing...this morning I found out how stressed I was. I was thinking about something...something serious...then my head started throbbing like hell. I felt something warm gushing from my nose... I thought i was having allergies so my nose was runny. Nope. My nose was bleeding. Wow... Amazing.

You know, you should be proud of yourself. You're the only girl I know who made my nose bleed from too much thinking. Weird, strange, freaky...but cool all the same. Haha, you're worth it. I know you are.

God help me if I'm wrong.

Word of The Day

There are so many things that have been happening to me that i should be thankful for. The past few days i guess have been the best days of my life so far. There are so many people I'd like to thank for making my week a memorable one. ;) You know who you people are. haha

I LOVE YOU GUYS!!! YOU GUYS ARE THE BEST!!!(*Hug*)

Last Friday for me was a definite "YAY" day. :D I was so nervous. No, in fact nervous wasn't the only word on my mind to describe my feelings that day. Edgy, wired, butterflies in the stomach, apprehensive, scared sh*tless, overwrought, spooked and stressed haha basically sum up that event. But in the end, everything was worth it. The whole, "set-up" lol. was worth the smile and "Yes" i got.

And the word of the day for me is Density. :D haha...

Once again, I'm floating high up above the clouds of bliss. :P I am soooo ecstatic! Happy! And whatever else that describes extreme euphoria/elation! LOL.

Bye!

I am so HIGH now! haha

heyyy :P

The fair was great :D

Well I guess i could say that the fair was really fun :) I loved that day. haha wala lang. thats it. :)
YAY!!! Thats all i want to say.